the most depressing part of the day is watching as the sky gradually gets darker and knowing that you have done absolutely nothing productive
There’s less than 5 days of college remaining, and I just can’t help but feel that I’m doomed. So fucking hopeless, lost, and not even sure where to turn. Maybe it’s just the stress talking, but I really don’t know what to do, or where life will go. Haven’t secured a job, not even sure if I’ll make it, what the fuck am I doing up at 2am… There is no happy place left, and there’s some really fucked up thoughts going on in my head.
I always end up wanting to turn to a substance, but goddammit I can’t just go there at this point. I want out, so I guess I’m just a quitter when a challenge comes up. I need an escape, I need to know why I’ve bothered making it this far, and why I should bother continuing. I’m really on the verge of just saying fuck everything..
90% of my problems would be solved if i stopped over-thinking and being anxious about everything & calmed the fuck down